Not all Trauma is from War or natural disaster, the trauma experienced can be emotional, violent, sexual abuse, ACES which are adverse childhood experiences or even narcissism, also known as little T’s. But realistically no matter the trauma itself, how it impacts you is traumatic non the less, especially if repeated, which creates PTSD and CPTSD.

"I don’t have any specific trauma. I've never been in a car accident and I wasn't bullied when I was little. So then why am I suffering so much on the inside? Why do I feel like the light on the inside is dim? Why do I have a hard time trusting myself and letting others come close?"

This confusion exists in many clients who reach out and are brave enough to ask for help and begin therapy. This confusion is a representation of how many may not fully understand the concept of trauma.

The world lacks vital information about what trauma is and is not. The world is opening up to a greater understanding of what the word means and has more compassion for the varying degrees of the impact on an individual.

The word “trauma” often sends a shiver down peoples' spines when hearing someone’s story.

What flashes through most minds, are perhaps images that bring fear, confusion and darkness, leading to denial or avoidance of discussing the topic.

The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, better known as the DSM (now in its 5th edition), is a manual used by mental health practitioners to diagnose behavioural conditions defines trauma as:

*Even though Alison is a trained Trauma Informed Coach, she unable to diagnose, only trained psychologists, psychiatrists and on occasion psychotherapist, Alison is in her first year as a University student studying Psychology and Counselling BSc, yet can not officially diagnose anyone with PTSD or CPTSD. She is also certified as a Level 2 Mental Health Practitioner and Level 2 ACES practitioner.

There are practices, methods and lifestyle medicine Alison is able to support you with whilst remaining within her scope of practice to best support her clients.

exposure to actual or threatened death, serious injury, or sexual violence in one (or more) of the following ways: directly experiencing the traumatic event(s);

*witnessing, in person, the traumatic event(s) as it occurred to others;

*learning that the traumatic event(s) occurred to a close family member or close friend (in case of actual or threatened death of a family member or friend, the event(s)

*must have been violent or accidental); or experiencing repeated or extreme exposure to aversive details of the traumatic event(s).

The DSM-V has done a good job expanding its breadth of the diagnosis to include vicarious exposure, however, there are some major limitations to the definition because one does not need to experience actual or threatened death, sexual violence or serious injury to perceive and experience an event as traumatic. 

That is why the term  "psychological trauma" has been used in more recent years to define any kind of experience where one has felt they were in danger, physically or emotionally, leaving lasting negative effects on the individuals mental, physical, social or emotional wellbeing, even financial wellbeing. (SAMSHA 2012). 

When discussing psychological trauma, it is important to clarify the two different kinds of childhood trauma (ACES).

The trauma of Acts of Commission, leaves the person feeling terrified and helpless in the face of fear. These include verbal, physical or sexual abuse that causes harm or even poses a threat to harm.

"But I've never been beaten or yelled at in a way that I felt scared" ….

I had a beautiful home, siblings, weekends with my extended family and a good group of friends. And I was lucky enough to have a boyfriend by my side for years." And then her voice trails off into a whisper. "But something didn't feel right on the inside, I always felt like something was off. I doubted myself. My boyfriend liked me when I didn't voice my opinions as much. And for some reason, I did not behave perfectly enough to get my parents to give me the attention, or emotional connection, I'm realizing now, I really needed.

"I think I was starving inside, but no one knew.

Not even me."

The wounds carried here are present with the sadness in her eyes and the felt sense of her sullen heart. She has been slowly learning about different kinds of wounds, losses, and is learning new ways to care for herself, now as an adult.

Here the client speaks of the quieter trauma, the Trauma of Omission, which refers to the lack of receiving what one needs in order to develop properly. These wounds  fall under the umbrella of neglect, where the individual was not provided their basic emotional needs of warmth, care, love and nurture. This may include inadequate supervision, attention or emotional attunement from their caregivers. There may have also been inadequate food, shelter, education and lack of protection from potential harm, or exposure to dangerous environments.  

It's important to give credence to the fact that trauma is based solely on the individual's experience.

One person may visit her grandfather who has a terrible temper and feel ok afterwards, yet her good friend who came along for the visit may feel shaken up for a while. SAMSHA, which stands for  Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration, validates this point by stating that a particular event may be experienced as traumatic for one individual and not for another, proving that trauma is a completely subjective experience (SAMSHA, 2012).

Dr Judith Lewis Herman, American Psychiatrist, graduated from Harvard in 1968, explains trauma in terms of lasting symptoms that leave footprints on the survivor. Herman, a professor of Clinical Psychiatry at Harvard University Medical School and a pioneer in the study of PTSD and sexual abuse in women and children, is known for her development of the diagnosis of Complex PTSD.  She describes Complex PTSD as a loss of self-integrity, disturbances in the ability to relate to and be intimate with others and emotion dysregulation (Herman 1992). 

"My moods often feel like a scary roller coaster, I find myself doing things that are not aligned with my values when I feel pressure from others, and I haven't let anyone get close to me in many years. I get a panicky feeling on the inside when someone expresses interest in me.... Are these symptoms related to trauma? I thought that people like me don't get that." Sitting across me, she sheds a tear, breaths heavily and then looks across the room. She reminds herself of the grounding exercises we've been practicing. Slowly, she puts one hand on her chest, the other on her belly, slows her breath down as she grounds herself. It seems as though her prefrontal cortex is coming back online, as she shifts her focus, posture and paces her breath. There's a gentle yet powerful, almost fierce power that seems to have awakened within. 

"Does this mean I can get better though?" The heavy boulder that has been seated on her shoulders during this conversation seem to slowly roll off.  

We notice the somatic shifts as her mind and body exchange thoughts, feelings and ideas. We tread on the new waters that are birthing, those that involve the process of reclaiming ones life. She had begun this powerful, life changing process of beginning to develop an emotional language, providing validation for her inner experiences.

Over the course of treatment she offered healing to parts of herself that were trapped at younger developmental ages, by form of creative expression of stuck feelings through art, music and narrative as she slowly embraced her voice, and her whole self. That was one of the steps towards inner safety, an upward shift that later allowed others in. 

A while passed and one summer day she shows up with a glisten in her eyes, "I can't believe I had enough oxygen in my body" is what she said as she sat down. This was in a session at a later phase of treatment, she had noticed that her hard work was paying off. She had strengthened her ability to regulate her breath, began to see a shift in stance, which mirrored the improved beliefs of self. A far way compared to when she first walked into therapy. 

This is an example of the healing process of clients who have experienced what I call the "silent wound".

The wounds that hurt deeply but are not obvious, and the distress experienced comes with a chronic sense of aloneness. These clients often compare their lives to others who have been through horror; "well my experience wasn't so bad compared to ____". Here I look at clients with a heart that is filled with compassion, as I speak with a solidity in my voice, as this message is so necessary to be deeply understood,

"Your trauma, wound or loss is defined by how your mind, body and psyche experienced it.

The specifics of the situation are irrelevant.

There is no hierarchy of pain.

Every traumatic experience is legitimate". 

If you've been struggling and thought that you have no "reason", please be kind to yourself and send some gentle care to the spots inside that are needing warmth and compassion. You may be a trauma survivor. One who has valid reasons to be hurting. One who can also choose to begin to feel, heal, and empower yourself as you take necessary steps towards inner strength.

You can learn to feel comfortable in your own skin. And you most definitely deserve to, and your Enriched life is available for you. 

If you are ready to take a step towards healing, Alison is here for you as a Trauma Informed Coach to support you tend to and heal the unseen and hidden wounds you carry, and help you grow into the woman you’re able to fully be.

Reach out to schedule your initial consultation and to begin a healing plan to help to coach you to heal.

Alison Stockton’s practice, and approach is to help you engage in mind-body-focused healing so that women can live more Enriched lives and love themselves and others more deeply.

We use scientific based methods such as EMDR, Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, Sensorimotor Psychotherapy, Internal Family Systems/ Parts work, Expressive Arts and More.